I've never told anyone this, but, perimenopause turned me into a total mess of a person...

At the age of 34 I went from being a fit and healthy person to an absolute mess of a person. 

I spent a whole year visiting doctors and being told by each one of these so called medical experts that "nothing was wrong" and being totally gaslit, that I was making my debilitating symptoms up. Heard that story before, right?

Cue one doctor, a year later ,who diagnosed me with premature ovarian failure. I had been married a year. The result of this; no children for me and an onslaught of every menopause symptom you can name. But times that by 1000!

4 years later I am 38 and still trying to understand my early menopause and process it all.

My night sweats, which turned into over 24 hot flushes and day plus day sweating are really impossible to handle! Today I’m on HRT and managed by an amazing endocrinologist (who literally saved my life). I struggle with body positivity now (thank you stupid weight gain!)

I just want to feel like I used to! Every day is a new thing, I am getting through, but don't feel like my vibrant older self any more.